That Other Place

I am attempting to notice my own emotional state and when it is out of balance find a way of capturing it with my camera for my project. This is early day attempts but show the idea.

This image is at the end of a horrible day. Karen’s carers turned up and hour and a quarter late as they had to deal with another client who was dying. Karen became distraught and upset over her helplessness and there was nothing more I could do than be with her during her distress. When up she went to her art class. I got a call early in to the session with Karen in tears as her specialised taxi had braked hard to avoid a cyclist and threw Karen from her chair. She was bruised and upset. When she came home we had to deal with a very common leaking catheter and clean up the mess. As we sat to watch tv in the evening her body kept going in to spasm and she kept crying out in pain. She appeared to have pulled a muscle in her fall also which was giving her another pain. She has now been put to bed by the carers and I sit on my balcony to try to ‘pull myself together’, a phrase my mum used often with me!

Same evening. You can only see the face but I can tell you in that moment behind the face it is extremely black. Meditation, tricks from therapists to get strong for tomorrow and most importantly to clear my head to get a good night’s sleep. This night that followed I did not sleep well.

The following morning after poor sleep. The head is still black with a little boy’s voice crying out for some help I know will not come.

This morning after a much better night’s sleep and deep in to my current obsession with photography.

This is a start and I will also be trying to capture images when my emotional state is better. Let’s see where it goes. Today is another day and in this moment I feel strong.

Categories: Project Development, Project Proposal, Surfaces and Strategies


I am a Photographer. As well as taking many photographs I am currently studying for an MA in Photography at Falmouth University. I will direct my attention through the lens of my camera for the next couple of years and see what shows up. I see a photograph as a little bit of magic capturing a moment in time. If successful it surprises and engages your emotions. It tells a story about the wonders of being alive or tells us what we need to change to make it a better world to live in. That is enough for me to get going and then like walking a 1000 miles, which I did across the UK in 2010, or walking 200 miles across Cyprus, which I did in November last year, it is one step at a time.

I was a writer. The title of my unpublished book was ‘You Would Have Done The Same.' It is about a successful guy in love with his wife who lets her die when he discovers her in the process of committing suicide. The title gives a clue as to what I think you would have done. The book is 200 pages long. I found it cathartic to write it but after two years of work and reviewing with agents decided it probably needed another 2000 hours to get the whole book up to the standard of some of the pages. Writing is great but it is a lot of sitting down so I decided to get out and walk, play tennis, play bridge, go birding, watch football at Nottingham Forest, Arsenal and Valencia and anywhere else if I can, meditate, cook and eat. I was a writer who has so far failed to become an author.
I was a young man who loved Mathematics and thoroughly enjoyed getting a BSc at Liverpool University. While there I went often to Anfield and the Philharmonic Hall. I was all set on doing a PhD until I went for interview practice at BP and got seduced by the excitement of an International business career. BP was a great adventure building trading teams and businesses in London, Antwerp, Cleveland Ohio and Singapore. Fabulous people and some great challenges and also very hard work, constant jet lag and lots of fun along the way. I married Karen, my stunning wife, and had the most amazing time with her and our three boys Alex, Tom and Dan. She has multiple sclerosis and we have taken on many challenges together but somehow keep creating a new normal against the horrors thrown our way. She is the love of my life.

After BP I decided to coach senior executives and quickly realized I had a lot to learn
about what makes people tick. I had a fantastic 18 months on the International Programme of the Cleveland Gestalt Institute. A great faculty and a
wonderful group of people on the programme. We studied and worked in Dingle, Singapore, Holland, Cape Town and
Lisbon. This also got me interested in the way we think and make decisions so I studied for an MSc in Psychology atUniversity College London in 2010. The
Masters was in Cognitive and Decision Sciences and I found it fascinating what
we do know but also how much we don’t know about how we think and make

I loved coaching and making a difference. I got a number of people to hear themselves, remove some of their own chains and free up the way they thought about the world. I remain fascinated by how people react to and engage with the world. My Masters thesis was why do two people given the same information make different decisions? Put simply, it is because each of us are unique in the way we are constructed.

Since returning from Singapore I found English winters tough so moved to Spain where I now live. The people are lovely, the scenery amazing, food delicious and the sun shines all the time. Almost.

All of these experiences will feed in to my time now as a Photographer. Three motivations I am lucky to have are enthusiasm, curiosity and a continuous interest in learning. All the time I look forward to meeting old friends and making new friends and experiencing this wonderful life together.